Bend and Be Straight

Me in Dhanurasana (Bow Pose) on a cliff overlooking the ocean on the Oregon Coast.

Me in Dhanurasana (Bow Pose) on a cliff overlooking the ocean on the Oregon Coast.

Last week I posted about my heartbreak over a decade old friendship that ended, in my opinion, rather abruptly.  But, since that writing, my friend and I remedied a couple fissures, leaving our relationship on a good note – a potentially open door for the future, and keeping in touch in the meantime.

While my heart is still heavy, I am ok.  God, yoga, friends and family have helped to make this scary new journey less scary.  I may be short a close friend, but I am still so loved, making me not really short at all.

Speaking of yoga…

For the month of June in my Hatha classes we’ve been working on balance.  This past week I shook things up a bit and added a little back-bending into the mix.

And like always, there’s a lesson.

I found a passage from the Tao Te Ching that offers a playfully-wise list of opposites or, rather, balances.

“Yield and overcome;
Bend and be straight;
Empty and be full;
Wear out and be new;
Have little and gain;
Have much and be confused.”

Bend and Be Straight.

How fitting for back-bending, yoga and life!  In our physical practice we are basically contorting ourselves into various postures all for the benefit of a lengthened spine, lean muscles and flexibility.  We’re bending to be straight; we’re yielding to produce; we’re humbling to blossom.

I feel as though this is happening in my own life right now.  By letting go of this relationship with an open heart and mind, I feel as though something wonderful will soon produce fruit in my life.

Already I’m experiencing a blossoming desire to not let other relationships slip away.

 

It’s like I’m letting go,

To find my way

And to experience truth

And beauty.

Out with the old,

In with the bliss.

A refiner’s fire.

Just bending to be straight.

 

Yup, I’m gonna be fine. Just fine.

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This post is super-awesome

awesomeLike any good blogger, once I’ve finished writing a post and before I hit publish, I list all my categories and tags, and check the boxes that need to be checked. One of those boxes, I kid you not, is “This post is super-awesome.”

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This is an extremely hard title to live up to. What if I don’t have an inner Barney Stinson!? What if when I get sad, I just get sad, and I can’t be awesome instead?

I want to. I want to be awesome all the time. More than just being awesome, I want to believe I’m awesome so that even on those days I really am not that awesome, I can still feel awesome.

I want to check that box for every. single. post.

But am I really that person? Is it dishonest to check that box every time? What if I think the post is super awesome, but it’s not? Will somebody find out that I checked the box, when my post is not that awesome?

Perhaps I am reading into the box a little too much. Maybe it’s WordPress’s way of virtually high-fiving me for having posted at all; A little pat on the back for posting once every four months.

What if as soon as soon as I got out of bed in the morning I was met with a giant floating check box that said “This day will be super awesome”?  Maybe then, as soon as my feet hit my slippers, I’d be pepped up enough to tackle the day with an attitude of super awesomeness, even if I wasn’t really all that awesome all the time.

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(bring it back to yoga)

The consistency of my yoga practice isn’t all that awesome all the time. What with life, teaching, writing, baby, cleaning, it is what it is. But that doesn’t mean I can’t have a super-awesome practice when it does happen.

I roll out my mat, turn on some tunes, do some breathing, and get ready to strike a Down Dog. Baby cries. Let baby cry for one more minute. This is going to be the most awesome Down Dog ever.signiture copy copy